Hard to believe a year has come and gone.
If I (Kelly,) had to sum up in just one sentence what I have learned most thus far…
It would be this…
“Don’t despise discomfort.”
For me, this year has been excruciatingly stretching.
It’s been a year of evaluating whether or not I truly live out of what I say I believe…
A year of seeking Him in the midst of battling the darkness that has inhabited my own mind.
It’s also been also been a year of emotional extremes.
And extreme Hope.
I’m not afraid of feeling.
Feeling keeps the soil of the heart alive and soft.
Some people call this emotionally unstable…
I like to call it “open!”
We said, “goodbye,” to our family and those we dearly love.
One simply cannot put a price tag on relationships.
Leaving them behind has left its mark.
Truth be told…
The hardest thing for us has not been…
No Target or Trader Joe’s, year long rashes and odd sicknesses, limited variety of food, extreme weather, bug infestations, living in a house that loves to break and catch fire, being robbed or…
My Good Pastor and I discuss the fact that we are still in a “grieving mode.”
It’s important to grieve.
It doesn’t mean that our focus has changed…
It simply means those in our lives deeply matter.
It means we are alive in the living.
In the midst of missing what was…
We continue to embrace and celebrate what is…
Like seeing God stir in new and unpredictable ways…
Seeing Him use our children to carry His loving presence…
Seeing transformation take place in a country that is becoming home…
And seeing a little-girl mom teaching her Smalls…
It’s ok to feel totally lost while journeying on the right path.
Our family is relearning just about everything.
And in the learning…
The dreams He put in us are now being planted in others.
We are not despising discomfort.
And each new friendship is an indescribable gift…
Teaching us something we might not have known otherwise.
Like learning to dance in the midst of discomfort…
Because love always promises to show up.
He has sustained us just as He promises.
And He has used YOU to offer us radical courage when we felt scared and alone.
We recount this first year with great humility, thankfulness, awe, and joy!
Thank you for believing in us.
It has reminded us to believe in ourselves.
Much love and gratitude,
Kelly on behalf of The Backwards Missionaries